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POWERLESS TO
Powerful
I HAD EVERYTHING. I FELT
The unfiltered story of how I went from surviving to actually living.
I HAD EVERYTHING. I FELT
The unfiltered story of how I went from surviving to actually living.
POWERLESS TO
Powerful
I grew up in a small town in Latvia with very little.
From nothing, I built everything.
I moved to France in my early twenties, fell in love, built a family, and created a life that from the outside looked like the definition of success.
We had resources.
We could travel.
We lived in beautiful places.
My husband loved me. I loved him.
There were no real problems from the outside.
But inside, I was slowly disappearing.
What I couldn’t see then was that beneath all the success, all the achievement, and all the control, I was still a little girl trying to prove that she was enough.
A little girl who had learned to be strong.
To keep going.
To earn love.
To earn approval.
To earn her place in the world.
I thought that if I could create the perfect life, I would finally feel whole.
I believed that if I had enough money, enough success, enough status, enough validation, then there would be nothing wrong with me.
IF PEOPLE ADMIRED MY LIFE, MAYBE I COULD FINALLY ADMIRE MYSELF
But no amount of success could heal what was asking to be seen.
Because I wasn’t creating my life from truth.
I was creating it from wounds.
The places where I had been hurt the most became the places from which I made my biggest decisions.
The more disconnected I felt, the harder I worked to control everything around me.
My food.
My exercise.
My environment.
My routines.
My image.
I became obsessed with optimising everything externally because internally I had no idea how to face what was actually hurting.
I was doing everything right.
My body was still falling apart.
Inflammation.
Exhaustion.
Anxiety.
Disconnection.
Not because of what I was eating.
Because of the life I was living inside of myself.
I looked healthy.
Disciplined.
Successful.
Self-aware.
I was so non-toxic in the world around me, yet so toxic toward myself.
Constantly criticising.
Constantly controlling.
Constantly chasing.
Constantly trying to become someone who was finally worthy enough to rest.
I thought I needed to fix myself.
What I actually needed was to meet myself.
To stop performing.
To stop proving.
To stop earning my worth.
And for the first time in my life, learn how to love the person underneath all the strategies, achievements, and perfection.
The little girl who never needed fixing in the first place.
The slow unraveling of a perfect life
MY PERFECT LIFE DIDN’T FALL APART OVERNIGHT.
It cracked slowly. Quietly. Year after year.
I was obsessed with growth, constantly trying to become a better version of myself.
But underneath it all, something wasn't right.
I felt disconnected. Restless. Like I was living a life that looked right but didn't feel right.
So I did what I always did. I looked for something to fix.
The marriage. The diet. Where I lived.
One more change, one more healing session, one more attempt to make everything fall into place. But the problem was never any of those things.
The problem was that I had spent years abandoning myself.
I didn't know who I was without the roles I played for other people. I didn't know how to choose myself without guilt. I had spent years controlling everything on the outside while avoiding everything on the inside.
THEN LIFE GAVE ME A CHOICE.
Keep pretending. Or finally face myself.
I chose to face myself.
Not through another diet, supplement or attempt at perfection.
I went back to the foundations. Nutrition. Movement. Therapy. Nervous system work. Meditation.
And the harder stuff - childhood wounds, inherited beliefs, patterns I kept blaming on other people.
I grieved. I forgave. I took responsibility.
And little by little, I started coming home to myself.
Not by becoming someone new. But by finally meeting the person who had been underneath the fear, the control and the self-abandonment all along.
It wasn't linear. It wasn't pretty. There were days I couldn't get off the floor.
But looking back, I wasn't falling apart.
I was shedding everything that wasn't truly me.
Because changing your relationship, your diet or your environment will never be enough on its own.
If you don't change your relationship with yourself, you carry the same wounds wherever you go.
Real health is not about the perfect routine.
It's about alignment. Self-trust. Honesty.
And having the courage to come home to yourself - again and again, even when it changes everything.
That is the work I help others do now.
I can't recommend Elina highly enough! From the very first session, I felt truly supported and understood. Not only did she help me transform my diet, but she also took the time to understand the bigger picture—looking at my entire lifestyle, mental well-being, and physical health. I've been struggling with rheumatoid disease for some time, and Elina created a personalized plan that not only helped alleviate some of the symptoms but also empowered me to take control of my health. The changes I’ve made under her guidance have been truly transformative. I feel more energized, balanced, and more connected to my body. She has helped me look at the root causes of imbalances rather than just addressing isolated symptoms. My mental health has improved alongside my physical health, and I now have a much more positive relationship with food and my body.
Jack/ 39 Y / London , UK
Thank you so much to Mrs. Elina Fillon who, thanks to a personalised follow -up,taking into account my physical, mental and psychological health,has completely changed my life. Her support throughout the process has been life -saving.After several failed attempts with different nutritionists,she helped me rediscover the pleasure of eating in healthy,balanced way,without that horrible feeling of depriving myself.The immediate consequence of a balance diet was the pleasure of taking care of myself., getting back into sport (at my own pace )and, on the medical front, a nice improvement in my analyses. In short, l’m reborn. She ´s so caring, so attentive, she’s looked after more than just my body, she’s touched my soul and the result are there. I could write several tome. She has no idea how grateful l am. Thank you so much
Marie / 45 y / Saint Tropez , France
Hi Ellie, Some feedback from me to you as a recap , hopefully you can help others too . When we started working I had problems with sleep, I have just hit the beginning of menopause ,i had worst tingling in my legs, fatigue. Lack of energy. Overeating . Working with you, I learned the right way.I have basic knowlege of nutrition , of my needs and i know how to balance my life and i learned so much . The tingling in my legs have disappeared. I am full of energy. And finally, I can sleep peacefully at night until dawn. P.S. Thanks for your help Elina . You solved my problems competently. The main thing is that eveything you told me - it works. I will continue the cooperation in future if i will ever need you .
Inese / 55 y / Munich , Germany
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